official due date countdown: 9 days.
oh dear me, i’ve started counting. i really didn’t want to do it, but it’s already up there and typed and all and … it’s begun. the waiting, waiting, waiting. i’m biting my lip as i type this, but … i’m bored. i wondered today, “is it feasible for the mother of a rowdy 2.5 year old, living abroad, studying language and such to say that she’s bored?” well, regardless … i am. i’ve been doing lots of nothing-to-do snacking, along with starting books, movies, and projects that fail miserably at holding my attention. so then i’m back to the basic three: jones, laundry, and cooking. (i find it rather ironic that in the moments surrounding baby’s birth, my boredom will slip away and be replaced by the ‘will i ever get anything done?’ mantra. i’m certain that feeling overwhelmed is in my near future.)
but i also feel blessed in my boredom. i haven’t felt overwhelmed or overly tired in weeks, and jones has been absolute bliss. he’s been repeating our phrases a lot (things like, “its a big deal!” and “this one goes here”), which is more-than-charming. and during the day, he’s been rather calm and tranquil — today, we were watching a seasame street counting video, and he came and laid his head in my lap and stayed there for a good fifteen minutes. he’s been very snuggly and has been playing well by himself, allowing me the extra time needed for my cook/rest/cook/rest dinnertime routine. i’m the grateful recipient of a supernaturally slowed-down toddler. this has been well-timed, and i thank God.
i’m thinking that my posts will become rather boring, as well, since my only fodder is the ‘basic three’ mentioned above. they might all start to sound the same (or have they already?). brainwaves are few and far between, which is not my design, so i can’t do much about it. 😉 hopefully real thinking will resume once the waiting is over and this babe is in my arms!
praising Jesus that i still feel content with where i am .. waiting, but not desperate. this, too, is a well-timed gift. i receive it gladly.